I just finished working at this time of the night (it's almost 11:00 pm now!). The work that I am referring is the office work, not my own study work. There is so many things to take care of for the coming up one-week day camp that I organized. I hope that the games/activities will be enjoyable for the kids. Thanks DGS for doing the session planning for me. I am just adding in some drama elements into the plan to make the whole thing more coherence and interesting (in my point of view).

Since I had a break in the afternoon without any case meeting, I had lunch with mom and grandma. Again, it's been a while since I saw grandma. The casual chat is always delightful.

Mr.S will be back tomorrow. During his business, I should have written emails to him. However,  I am just too bounded by this coming week's event. Um...there's not much to talk about in the emails anyways.

I haven't been back to TMH for such a long time. It always feeling very warm to see the parent-clients there. I especially like the yoga class I have every wed with them. Today there were only 3 parents but I was able to attend to each of them. They all think that the yoga helps them to relax. Of course I want to teach them to relax more than the physical body but also the mind. Hopefully if we can continue this group as a long term one, we would be able to achieve something. Well, but to the mentality of yoga, there should be no pushing, just doing and enjoying.

Then the afternoon was very busy. I was nervous in packing up all the materials that I will need for my group in next week. It feels like I have tones of things to deal with for the group since it is a week-long day-camp thing. At the same time it would be exciting because I am having 13 kids now. There may be still a few more coming. Hopefully the group dynamic would be interesting and beneficial to the kids.  

Mr. S is not in HK now. He's in Philipine working and will be back on Friday. Hence tonight I won't have people to talk to me on the phone. Let's do some meditation...Really need to make it into habit.

I was so highly agitated when I was in a hurry but could not find the bus stop. It was all my fault for not prepared well before heading out. I was already on the run when I left my office so I had to call Mr.S for the road direction. I guess I was just too lazy so I wanted to take the bus rather than to take the MTR. I really should not do that when I was in a hurry. When I arrived the place Mr.S where the bus stop should be, I could not find the right bus stop. Then I tried to find it but it was nowhere to be found. I was 30 min behind my schedule so I was very frustrated. I knew that the MTR station is far away that I would be late for sure if I continue to hunt for the bus stop. At the end, I couldn't find it. After searching for 30 min, I was at the same MTR station exit where I always us after taking the minibus from QMH. It was a total waste of time and effort to seek the bus stop. It made me real angry. Luckily Mr.S was patience with me. Even though he was obviously busy at work, he helped me out with the road direction and called to see if I was ok.

After work, I had a nice tea with Larissa. Again, I like it so much when I meet those long-time-no-see friend. Usually I would say to myself that I should have more sociable earlier so that I could enjoy these friend-time earlier. We only met for a bit more than one hour, it was a nice chat. She was telling me how one of our peer-students in CUHK told her that s/he thinks that me and Larissa are the most stupid in class. Then the conclusion was that people from Vancouver are more stupid than HK people. How rude that the person said that (I am not angry though, it's just not that nice to hear someone say that you are very stupid). I don't know what's the base for that person to say that I am stupid. But from what Larissa described, the definition of 'stupid' to that person is that we are not cunny as HK people are (of course I know not all HK People are cunny). It's true that I am more willing to trust other than to watch out for others. So far, people who I interact with are all nice people. At least they are not bad in intension most of the time. They never harm me or anything. Even when people are not so good, s/he is just working for what benefits him/herself. That's really nothing wrong about it.

In a sense, I am proud that I am 'stupid', in the sense that I am willing to trust other and willing to see the goodness of others. I am glad that people who study in Saybrook or teach in Saybrook are also believers of goodness in human beings. How sad it would be when one thinks that everyone out there is going to get him/her or to harm him/her. Too much precausous just make people nervous and unhappy.  

Oh, I suddenly remember the patient and her husband that I met in the morning in the palliative clinic. It is such a delight to meet this couple. Even though the wife is in the palliative stage, both of them are maintaining a very positive attitude with the sense of calmness. It's very sweet that the husband read a lot about healing in order to help the wife to cope with the physical discomfort. Even during the immense pain, the patient remains hopeful. Both of them know the importance of psychological welless to physical wellness. I really really wish that they can make it. Even though i know we should keep a neutral mind to accept whatever comes up and let go when it ought to.

Even though I cancelled appointment in the afternoon, it was still a very busy day. I usually don't utilize my one hour lunch-hour for lunch when I am on my own in QMH, that means I was working all the time for 9 hours today (because I started early and left office late). However it is worth it that I worked late for seeing the children came to my office usually went out contended. Moreover, I was starting to recruit people for my two bereavement groups. The process is going quite smoothly. That lessens my worries.

After work, I visited GuMa in the hospital. She's still in the hospital. It's been about one month now that she stays there.

Another surprise was the message that SeeSee left me in the xanga. She's really getting older (it's my impression from reading her post in the xanga). It feels strange that she talks so philosophically but in my mind, I can still recall that little girl in South America stood in front of the mirror to imitate my dad scold on her.