I was so highly agitated when I was in a hurry but could not find the bus stop. It was all my fault for not prepared well before heading out. I was already on the run when I left my office so I had to call Mr.S for the road direction. I guess I was just too lazy so I wanted to take the bus rather than to take the MTR. I really should not do that when I was in a hurry. When I arrived the place Mr.S where the bus stop should be, I could not find the right bus stop. Then I tried to find it but it was nowhere to be found. I was 30 min behind my schedule so I was very frustrated. I knew that the MTR station is far away that I would be late for sure if I continue to hunt for the bus stop. At the end, I couldn't find it. After searching for 30 min, I was at the same MTR station exit where I always us after taking the minibus from QMH. It was a total waste of time and effort to seek the bus stop. It made me real angry. Luckily Mr.S was patience with me. Even though he was obviously busy at work, he helped me out with the road direction and called to see if I was ok.

After work, I had a nice tea with Larissa. Again, I like it so much when I meet those long-time-no-see friend. Usually I would say to myself that I should have more sociable earlier so that I could enjoy these friend-time earlier. We only met for a bit more than one hour, it was a nice chat. She was telling me how one of our peer-students in CUHK told her that s/he thinks that me and Larissa are the most stupid in class. Then the conclusion was that people from Vancouver are more stupid than HK people. How rude that the person said that (I am not angry though, it's just not that nice to hear someone say that you are very stupid). I don't know what's the base for that person to say that I am stupid. But from what Larissa described, the definition of 'stupid' to that person is that we are not cunny as HK people are (of course I know not all HK People are cunny). It's true that I am more willing to trust other than to watch out for others. So far, people who I interact with are all nice people. At least they are not bad in intension most of the time. They never harm me or anything. Even when people are not so good, s/he is just working for what benefits him/herself. That's really nothing wrong about it.

In a sense, I am proud that I am 'stupid', in the sense that I am willing to trust other and willing to see the goodness of others. I am glad that people who study in Saybrook or teach in Saybrook are also believers of goodness in human beings. How sad it would be when one thinks that everyone out there is going to get him/her or to harm him/her. Too much precausous just make people nervous and unhappy.  

Oh, I suddenly remember the patient and her husband that I met in the morning in the palliative clinic. It is such a delight to meet this couple. Even though the wife is in the palliative stage, both of them are maintaining a very positive attitude with the sense of calmness. It's very sweet that the husband read a lot about healing in order to help the wife to cope with the physical discomfort. Even during the immense pain, the patient remains hopeful. Both of them know the importance of psychological welless to physical wellness. I really really wish that they can make it. Even though i know we should keep a neutral mind to accept whatever comes up and let go when it ought to.